Rewind.Revive.Rebuild.

I can say I can confidently step back for a moment,and just review the whole picture.Where I begun,what I experienced,and where I am now.And what it's all about.how it all works,experiencing all the change,the things you do as a person to be...yourself,or an image to others.And if it's all for the good.Does it have a good effect on your well being?If so,or not,why?
I'd be daft to admit i regretted any of it,becuase i don't-not a thing.Sometimes i dont feel there is such a thing as regrets,becuase if it shapes you into being the human being you are,then surely that shouldn't be something you wish had never happened.For the better or worse-at least it's a moment of realisation.I guess its those moments,are where the stages in life follow.
I'd also be daft to say that i'd come out of the whole thing,a changed person-for the better.that would be a lie.I have experienced some of the worst,ever moments of my life.Where i've felt my soul,my personality leap from my body-heart crashes to the floor-exploding into a thousand pieces,like a glass vase of sentimental value-pieces shattering everywhere,scrabbling around on the floor,finding as many pieces as you can,glueing it all back together as best as possible...yet there is always a couple of pieces that are never found,and it'll always be more fragile...will break in the very same seams.
And i've learnt how to deal with unusual people in horrible situations yes,but it's also made me more afraid of them.I am alot more self conscious than i used to be,and am aware how easily i can let complications seap into my mind set,and change my once positive mind.I guess I recognise it now,but it would be so easy to go on and let it all corrupt me.I understand now.How people can take things out on themselves.
I understand how you must GET OUT when you're body is calling for it.Your heart can decieve and tell you otherwise.for some reason it follows the story of some movie,not real life or realism.

I recognise the fact that some people you're purely not meant to gel with.You can try,and hope that somehow you can make some lasting impression on how they deal with things but,some people are just so set in their ways.And thats ok.Some people so muddled up inside,they will convey an air of confidence to trap unfortunate pray who can't help but feel sympathy for.
some people will want to push you so far,and not in a good way.Some people will want to appear good for you,and yet are bad for you at the very same time.And I can put up with a bit of that,if they can show they're willing to show a bit of effort in the other direction...but pure selfishness,it just wears one thin.And i've just been worn so thin.
So,i am better than all of that.I have somehow mangaed to flick that switch in my brain to just turn it all off and shut him out.And it feels pretty good right now.Lets hope i can keep it up.