"caught up in the rat race."

I think it was defonatly the alcohol last night.
Just keep telling yourself the same things.That he's obviously going to find someone new,because he's friends are leaving travelling,and you are leaving for uni-you both lead different lives.He needs someone,and if he doesn't,he'll wrewin another year of uni for you again-and you don't want or need that.You say you want this next year to be one of change,and you want a proper relationship this time around.He will do whatever he can to stop you,and it will upset you-he,will upset you.And you've had way to much of that,your heart,your emotions can't take anymore of it before he starts changing you into someone you're not.You will look back in regret,wishing you wouldn't have let him in and change you.Nobody should feel that way.
You need to finally accept in these final stages of moving on,that he 'opperates on another level to you' as dad so rightly says.You know who you're after,you know you want and need someone to bring you butterflies and joy-jokes you can both laugh at-truely appriciate you for who you are,not who he's trying to make you be.And that person is out there.And the sooner you can let go of him,the sooner you can find someone you deserve.It's only a couple of months,and you can do it.He shouldn't throw much at you anymore as,you've both distanced each other alot now.But he will probably try,when he's feeling down or lonely.Just don't let him be the one to drag you down,when dragging everything back up again.You really do deserve better,and eventhough it doesn't seem like he knows it now,he will miss you and what you've brought to him in the past year.But when he does see it,he'll regret it and it will be a bit too late.
The most attractive qualities you can bring,are your smile and joy and welcoming to everyone you meet.something everyone will want to be around.And he's squeezed that out of you recently,and he probably find some pleasure in that.So don't give him the satisfaction.However much it's awful knowing that you know him for who he really is,and everyone else seems to be falling for the same perceptions in which he lies,at least you've learnt now.
Let this,be the last time.

Bring on Huddersfield.