So,I feel like i've grown up alot of the past couple of days.I feel as though,I can breath again.
I've been working alot as of late,and as much as it drains me of my possitiveness as the grim general public wear my personality away,I know I'm very lucky.It's nice to have something of good accumolating,although I'm not sure how far it'll all go.But hopefully I'm not wasting my time.Isn't that what we all want?hehe.I'm not sure.
recently I've realised i'm a lot stronger at dealing with problems that I originally thought I was.I guess Ben has been mingled in my days somehow,but thats ok.It's not in a bad sense,we both know the situation-and,more importantly,I've got lots to look forward to in my life.focusing in particular,next year.Year two.I'm going to make sure it's amazing.
I'm really going to give Joe a shot too,I'm going to be confident and ask him out for a drink I think :) he's just too good to miss,he really is special.We've been messaging lots,which reminds me i need to reply very soon!But,he makes me excited.And makes me feel appriciated.I can really be myself with him,and I hope that next year he'll be involved in my life alot more.And i'm always scared that when I write these words of hope,think them and wonder in daydreaming phases,that i'm somehow jinxing myself so it'll all fold,but,I hope on this occasion...it'll be ok :)
I am completely undone by the musical workings of The Shins.They absolutely blow me away.
they are the soundtrack of my life at the moment.
I think...I'm happy :)
I've been working alot as of late,and as much as it drains me of my possitiveness as the grim general public wear my personality away,I know I'm very lucky.It's nice to have something of good accumolating,although I'm not sure how far it'll all go.But hopefully I'm not wasting my time.Isn't that what we all want?hehe.I'm not sure.
recently I've realised i'm a lot stronger at dealing with problems that I originally thought I was.I guess Ben has been mingled in my days somehow,but thats ok.It's not in a bad sense,we both know the situation-and,more importantly,I've got lots to look forward to in my life.focusing in particular,next year.Year two.I'm going to make sure it's amazing.
I'm really going to give Joe a shot too,I'm going to be confident and ask him out for a drink I think :) he's just too good to miss,he really is special.We've been messaging lots,which reminds me i need to reply very soon!But,he makes me excited.And makes me feel appriciated.I can really be myself with him,and I hope that next year he'll be involved in my life alot more.And i'm always scared that when I write these words of hope,think them and wonder in daydreaming phases,that i'm somehow jinxing myself so it'll all fold,but,I hope on this occasion...it'll be ok :)
I am completely undone by the musical workings of The Shins.They absolutely blow me away.
they are the soundtrack of my life at the moment.
I think...I'm happy :)
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