I wish I didnt get so excited.i feel,it's been so long sinse i've felt like this,got hope in my heart,somebody on the horizon.And yet,it almost fills me with dread,I'm letting that person in,and I am excited getting to know them slowly,which means I must be getting over Ben.Finally,it feels like,someone is poiting me in the right direction,but im worried it's so long til i'm back up north.So,a lot of time will pass between now and then.
But i musnt lose faith,I mean theres only so much you can do,and just being friendly and chatty,being patient,may well be the best way!it's the only way!
but,he makes me feel...like I used to.I feel romantic and giddy,I feel happy and I have things to look forward to.Im worried he'll find out the foolish thing I did.But hopefully,he wont.
I really like him.
I'd go as far to say...he's perfect.
but that makes me pesermistic...why.
But I'll be hoping anyway :)