Come on now,lets smile.

Oh my god.
Moments ago,I realised how much I have changed,reading my old blog before leaving things behind.

I like the old me far more than the me now =[
At least she wasn't cluttered with a head full of mush,infected by poisonus people.She could handle it in an adult way.And heck,I'm going to deal with it like an adult right now.There is no such thing as old and new in myself-they're both always there combined in the pressent.I've always let my heart rule my emotions and create far bigger problems,and encoraged me to over-react and,act differently.I'm not used to letting jelousy spread through me,and it's not right.I don't know why this is taking hold of me so much,why I keep doing what I know is bad for me.I've learnt my lessson,but i just keep failing again and again.On the outside looking in,I just want to take my hand and guide myself away from him altogether.turn my face toward the sun,and smile and remenise about the good memories i've had.that times really aren't as bad as they appear,friends can be possible,i just need to distance myself from him emotionally.And,he should understand that.

It can be done.I am strong enough.Whether it'll come to anything or not,i've found a new person to enjoy getting to know.And if I keep hoping,keep trying,then hopefully,things will turn out ok in the end.In all respects.

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