9.6.09

=[ bad times.

Ever get the feeling you just dont know why,you even bother?like there isn't any point to you being around,taking any part in the day,what contribution do you make?your just a sweet smile you'll soon forget.That is all.
I hate myself.
I really do,today I am just so annoyed at myself.

I DONT KNOW WHY I EVEN BOTHER.
WHY DO I HAVE THE TIME FOR YOU?WHY DO I LET MYSELF DO IT?
you treat me like shit,and yet...
i cant say it.IT MAKES ME FEEL SICK.

grrrr.I need to snap out of this awful mood.Im upset :(
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