So this is me,letting go...giving up,giving in.All that crazy jazz-it's happening.

It's been a rubbish,rubbish day so far.And we are still in the morning-which is not good.
I feel like utter crap,although that may well be bacuase my glorious time of the month has decided to arrise,and to be honest,thats a very good thing.I am pleased things are trying to settle down again,well,at least in some areas.
I'm off home soon.Just need to hand in an essay,then mooch around town for an hour or so.Then i'm getting a train home,hopefully meeting up with Robyn and we're going out.I'm looking forward to being in and around comfortable surroundings,I feel like i want to start this year all over again,but,everything happens for a reason I know that much.
I feel sick.
I feel so unwanted.
And I really want...someone.
But desberation is not at all attractive,and will only lead me into the arms of a complete arsehole.No,I need to wait really.
I waited before,I can wait again surely.
I just hope he's looking forward to meeting me,whenever that day will be.I suppose i've never really had a taste of true single life,maybe now is the time to enjoy it?

we all the answer is no.never.
But lets see.
Put on a smile,and hope for the very best.