On a down low right now. =[
Feeling upset,feeling as though everyones evolving around me,living happy lives doing happy things,in couples with loads of friends everythings just so amazing...and then I look at me.I just feel myself crashing in front of the mirror.I know its so dramatic,but sometimes...I just wonder why I even bother.
Why do I care so much about certain people?how do I let them take me over?
I can be so strong sometimes,and yet,so pathetically weak.
People just seem to yabber on over me,they dont care.I guess at the end of the day,NOBODY CARES.

^^ actually,thats very harsh.I'm being harsh on people around me,the people I havnt yet met,and past occurences.I can't be so annoyed if I havnt been trying too hard,and I havnt allowed myself the time to make these dramatic changes.I need to look at myself more possetively,be happy for those that are around me as I know I really am pleased for them all.I've just had pangs of feeling inpatient.and thats not me at all.
normally,i'm a very patient person.

I'm going to change back into the old me :) I have decided.