Heartbreaker...

I don't think i've ever seen saddness etched apon someones fce quiet like simons yesterday.I don't think i've ever been in the position before,where I really genuinely felt that someone had these great feelings for me.I know he thinks the world of me...and now,i've told him to move on.
I meant it though,things are still so muddled up for me right now,i've so much going on in my head,and,I do think the world of him,but I just don't see him in that way.I havnt wanted to,I hold him dear to me as a friend.I hate talking about serious stuff like that,especially when you know they're wanting something your not going to tell them.
but at least now he can move on.
I feel awful though.

I can't wait to see Ben next.
I just hope I dont screw things up somehow before then.
=/ nervous about later today,where these cool,hip,pretty girls are coming over to mine to exchange ideas and plans about our group project,oh dear.I know they're going to walk away with bitchy comments,oh why can't I be like everyone else??