Becuase theres beauty in break down...

I love this feeling i'm experiencing right now.
Ever get it,when you watch a film,which is so truely amazing you feel as though you've been there yourself?When the credits role,you feel like you can look at yourself and life in a different way?even if it's only for a day...wow deep stuff.
Garden State just has to be up there with one of my favourite films,in addition to Reqium for a dream,eternal sunshine and science of sleep.
I just feel,so free all of a suddnen.I need to stop being so pesermistic.And realise that,everything that happens,happens for a reason.And even if what happens is bad,there is obviously some reason behind that-which,could be a blessing in disguise.

I don't really need another half to make me whole,I have the rest of my life to live and meet so many new people,why am I putting this pressure on myself now?Just becuase all my friends are with there husbands-to-be,with babies and such like,means that its the right way.I have some amazing friends,and I cant wait to be with my family again,and I have so much to look forward to.
So,I'll just smile away these current not-so-great times,and hope an 'up' will come along soon.