So far,it's been rather good.I wouldn't go as far to say amazing or incredible,and i'm not going to lie i'm dissapointed as I've well and truely given into temptation.
It's just,when he's there in front of me,and we're getting on so well,I just can't help but get carried away in the moment.And forget all the upset and irritation caused,what we both did to each other,eventhough it was unintentional.
Is it bad I can't delete his old texts?Is it a bad thing that I don't really want to erase him from my mind becuase,I still want there to be the option?or re-read them and pretend that things are still fresh,new and exciting.I can't explain the feeling of two contrasts at once; the utter joy someone felt like that about me,yet the dishearteningment knowing that i've lost him and it's highly unlikely i'll be with anyone else I felt that way about.Certainly attractively.Which I hate to say.
Later on,i'll post my blog I wrote on the train down.And I'll laugh at what I had set out to do this holiday.And already i've smashed my ambitions in a night,but never mind.We both agreed we knew the situation,and one day we will have to meet and be friends.But I doubt that'll be any time soon,I guess it'll stop til either of us find someone else.
I don't know when that'll be.But i'd like it to be soon.
And I wonder if it'll be him who finds someone first.
I wonder what i'll feel.

I just have to be strong.And do the right thing.maybe following my heart isn't the best idea,you're head does good to take over sometimes.