Lost.Everything.

Yep.
I was an idiot.
I told a white lie.
And i've lost him,and any chance of there being anything.
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Maybe this is a blessing in disguise.But it hurts at the moment becuase I ALWAYS look the idiot,and am the one whose out of order.NEVER him.
It's all gone.
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And I hate myself.
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But then,I'm worth more.I know it.
I'm going to start again.
And concentrate on better,more important things.

This,really is the last time I'll talk about him.I'm fed up of going backwards,and falling into the plain old same old,stupid situations.
It isn't helping me grow.