"but we're in love...and that should be just fine....just keep a hold of me,don't let go,if you float away...if you float away..."

I'm in my traditional element.Where i'm always thinking about crushy love and relationships,all that jazz.It just gets me down.I'm fed up of faffing around people with all there own problems and situations-all my friends,well,old friends are engaged,married or have children-i almost feel as though i've lost my chances...like,they'll be nobody out there for me.
I know it's rediculous really,becuase there have been plenty of people who've made quiet a thing about liking me and wanting to be with me,but my pride n expectations make me want to wait.I don't know why i'm complaining,becuase it's entirely my fault i'm in this situation.But I havn't really met anyone of late I really want to be with.There are people I think are cute,and would like to develop something to build apon,but it's highly unlikely and in some ways rather inconvienent.they never really seem that interested in me in that sort of way anyway,or,they never show it.
It's still him on my mind,when I see him I just wanna look fantastic and want to be all those things he wants in a girlfriend,I want to be-and always have wanted to be everything to him.But I know that'll never be unfortunatly.
But it's a good thing.And i know this is all a part of getting over him and moving on.It won't be long until I go back to huddersfield,friends to meet n catch up with,mucho work to do,it's all ahead of me.So,being busy will help.but i know i'll still check up on him,text him first and see if he'll want to talk...i'll be a fool.I musn't do the same thing i did last time,I need to show that i am stronger than this becuase I know I am...