A new Leaf.

So,with new beginnings,regular blog entries to keep me busy,to avoid feeling low.
Have decided to do one of those things everyone seems to be doing on Facebook these days,as pesky lil notes.
[50 truths about me.]...
1.I am to much of a perfectionist,if there is such a thing.
2.I am terrible at time management.
3.I'm not sure who I really am yet.
4.Which makes me feel quiet uncomfortable in my own skin.
5.I always want to follow the same cheesy dream of mine,to find love.To find that perfect man for me.He is out there for me,surely...
6.I am a vegetarian,and have been all my life.Tempted to go Vegan,but I just love cheese to much.
7.I love to dream.
8.I love looking back on past times,fond memories and how things used to be just as much as the future.
9.I wish I were different sometimes.
10.I wish I were better.
11.I take things to heart,and over anylise pretty much everything to much.
12.I am my own worst enemy.
13.I love to sing.It makes me feel so happy.
14.I love the sea.It keeps me company,and sometimes I feel it's the only thing that listnens to me.
15.I always end up with people wanting to control me,and make me into somebody different whether it's theire intention or not.
16.I always feel like i'm recovering from something inside,I never feel mended.
17.The majority of the time I'm dissapointed in myself,I want reminding that I'm not terrible at everything that I do.
18.I try too hard sometimes.
19.Which makes me feel like an idiot.
20.What I wouldn't give to belong to someone right now,be thier purpose in life.
21.I appriciate the little things in life as aposed to technical items,I tend to lead a more retro style of life.
22.My friends mean more to me that they'll ever know.
23.I usually don't sleep.My thoughts keep me awake.
24.I'm an excelent liar,which i'm not at all proud of.
25.I'm good at keeping things to myself,especially opinions.I need to be more opinionated.
26.I love art,design,textiles,anything creative.Being creative keeps me going,without it,I probably wouldn't be here anymore.
27.I tend to plan ahead too much.
28.And plan things that are bit too ambitious.
29.Sometimes I want to find myself in somebody elses body.And be them for the day.
30.I'm never happy with the barnet situation I have going on.It always looks like a nest.
31.I have the huge urge to travel.I've finally caught the travel bug.Keeping on the move means I can't hold onto things that may keep me weighed down.
32.I want to be free.
33.I can feel peoples saddness.I feel it pulling my heart closer towards the ground.
34.Which is why I hate telling people how I really feel,or my real opinions on certain matters as I don't want to upset them.
35.I find myself enjoying watching other peoples lives go past.
36.I like hearing other peoples conversations-just in snip-its.
37.I love trains,and journeys with no real destination.
38.I enjoy sponinuiety,yet am not very spontanious myself.
39.Sometimes I want to run away.
40.Sometimes I tell myself i'm unhappy when I'm not.I just say that becuase it's how others may feel in my shoes,so I take on their persona,when really i'm fine on the inside.
41.I'm incredibly close to my family.and love them dearly.
42.I don't want to dissapoint a single family memeber ever.
43.Music means everything to me,though I always find it impossible picking one favorite band.
44.I'm missing someone right now =[ who has supprised me becuase I wasn't expecting to feel like this.
45.I'm scared about moving on.
46.I'm scared about seeing others moving on.
47.Confident people are immiedietly attractive to me,as I wish I were more like them.
48.I aspire to travel in a hot air balloon.
49.I want to get married.
50.And have 4 wonderful children :)

So there we are.sometimes,writting raw facts about yourself just has to be done.
So,there we go.

it's pancake day today,which means it's lent.I'm going to give up chocolate and crisps and see if I can manage it!
Set myself a lil challenge.

I'm also going to work my ass off.As i need to keep myself busy!