1.11.08

And so it is.

So being home has been all i thought it would be,and yet,everything I wasn't expecting.
Saw ben the past couple of days and it's been both amazing,and bloddy awful.He's still the same over dramatic twat he was on the phone.I don't need this.I didn't need it then,and i don't need it now.He's to needy,clingy and feels he can...buy my affections maybe?I can't help but wonder he really doesn't see me for who I really am.

Met his mum though,and his cute brothers,it makes me feel like i'm apart of the family,as though this could be a real relationship dispite to damn inconvience and seriousness.

I think his powerhungry.
he wants the upperhand over me,as he fears i'll run away?find someone better?do i give that impression or is just that insecure?
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